well, it's my first proper post. two previous ones were test ones. anyways. not sure if i should keep this font? let me change things up!!!
perfect. less readable. or is it readable? man i gotta find some font!!!!
let's go smaller. anyways. so... my first post..cool cool cool.... so like, there is this girl i really like. i know every girl i meet and try to get with i say 'she's not like the others' but like this time she's not, because i always dated girls who like cartoons and were like nerdy basically. but shes not nerdy, she is someone who actually has a life! wait a sec.
i forgot to mention that i still have some things to do to fix up my website. how do i archive what i have so far? i really need to find out. anyways.
this girl, shes really lovely. i need to give myself a week to see if i still like her. i mean, i'm scared but.... i think maybe i'm serious about this relationship, i mean what adult relationship isn't serious? says me who is about to turn 18 in august 11. she always asks to call me and i guess at first we sucked at texting but now we text a lot but yeah we got to know each other better today by calling for a long time. stuff is awesome. well, this is a new chapter in my life where everything is actually going great!! i hope i dont jinx it. i mean, i am moving out, i finally finished this website, i edited every interview footage and now i am ready to finally promote my music. i think it's all fallen into the right place.
i told the girl i like i just finished making a website, which is this one, but i don't want her to know about this website. LIKE AT ALL. i lied to her saying it's a website for something else. hope she doesn't find out. fuck. now i'm anxious. why am i saying all this?? let me just figure out how vague i can be so she doesn't find this.
what if my sisters will read this and make fun of me? but i kind of don't care.
okay i just read everything, stuff sounds vague. maybe i may delete this blog. i want my first blog to be about me! but this ISSSS about me. right well. i'm planning on just posting a few more blogs before promoting this. i gotta edit some stuff. it's a really busy day for me, but it's the start of the month and everything fell right into place. it's gonna be a great month. i am getting my university stuff settled today for moving out too! everything is falling right into place. you know, i don't care if she finds this. she doesn't know it's her. NOBODY KNOWS BECAUSE IM VAGUE! anyways. vague vague vague mhm sure that is what i am.
i wrote a lot of stuff about her in my journal, which is not vague, so here i blog. why not?
i think she's just as weird as me and ACTUALLY doesn't make me feel stupid about myself and can help me fully see through my ocd.
whenever i date a girl, yes she does help me get through my ocd, but its not because shes weird as me but because she tolerates it. but this girl, shes as weird as me! i feel like...happy. shes so nice to me. i think she fell for me first. she makes me listen to chappell roan. usually i listen to rap and pop obviously and chappell is pop but i mean well i don't listen to lesbian situationship pop music. WTF AM I EVEN SAYING. shes fucking awesome, i feel like me and her can hold hands in front of my older sister and say 'WE DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR OPINION' because my older sister always judges me! why do i seek her approval? anyways...
BRB.
sorry im back. had to do something. my mom had a cranky attitude all morning and then me and my sisters got upset with her at it then it bounced off the attitude to my sister and now everyone bonded over hating me. me? i walked out the room. ive been a punching bag my whole life so liek now i don't care. when you don't care, is when people start to feel defeat and not use you as a punching bag anymore. anywho..... im sleepy. im trying to be vague as possible. will anyone even read this? this is like a stupid vague-diary entry, that is what blogs are for, or for when you run out of pages IRL. maybe that's a mix of both for me right now. DAMN! i shall write some advice on these blogs. hopefully people see them.
I also need to remember the labels on this website that I need to make...
-content
-randomness
that sums pretty much all of it- wait. does it?
i swear there were 3 more, what the hell was it.
-my life
what were the other ones!?!
should i add unnecessary shit like gaming? wait. its MY website. I GET TO DECIDE..
-old technology. mhm mhm. i need my community for that. i got a whole blog coming for that one! wish i had this blog earlier to document word for word what ive done for old technology and not just from memory.
shall i talk about cartoons as well maybe? you know.. ill make those labels one day when i feel like it. but heres my first blog. maybe ill make a vlog tab!! anyways.... doodoooo dooooo..... goodbye yall. have fun in life.
oh wait i shall make a blog about my cat! hold on gotta pee.
crap. do i write the rest of my words on here or make a new blog really quickly as simple as a tweet? i don't wanna be making short blogs like tweets, that's why i made my own website. this is MY website!
okay idea for a next blog: grieving my ipod. or... shall it be.. hmm.. dang. DANG! I GOT TOO MANY IDEAS I GOTTA WRITE DOWN! should there be a blog a day? can you guys tell that i have OCD. okay. i'm gonna figure it out. ill make a new blog thread thing for like.... website updates. thats another one i guess. anyways. goodbye blog!
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