hi guys i'm gonna start posting here again :)
also happy pride month :) i actually made a song about being lesbian on my album. the song is called closeted. listen to it if you want, but my favorite song i made is cannot stop it! so listen to that one too about autism. see you guys soooooooon!
people are less hopeful about life because they consume short form content rather than films. even a short film is more long than what we consume today. we have been consuming films for centuries. everything in society regards to socialising with others has been fine until youtube was created. no, i'm not saying youtube is at fault- i LOVE youtube. but i think it's the infiltration of non-talented people trying to be a youtuber. everyone is trying to do the same thing now. back in the day i remember people would tell you you are a weirdo for watching youtube. that youtube was for nerds only. but then every social media app copied youtube's format. so now everybody is infiltrated within it. like i mentioned earlier, we couldn't of gone wrong with movies. watching full length movies. but we have gone downhill with watching short form content.
people will give you every advice but the one you need to fix a short attention span. just live life like back then....go to the movies..stop streaming stuff...just...go to the movies. make the time and effort in the money to make it there. you chose to be there. you physically cannot open your phone to doomscroll in the cinema.
that's why everyone is so lifeless now. because everyone is in a hurry to try and be influencers, there is no more hope for individualism. at least back then being basic involved some sort of individualism. because the world was more colorful. so yes, DO STAND OUT. DO USE THAT OLD BRIGHT FRUTIGER AERO TECHNOLOGY. !!!!!!!!!!
yesterday i tried to get minitube 2.3 / 2.4 on my mac. cause it has very low storage low ram all that shit so i cant even open youtube so i was thinking okay i'll get minitube or something if the websites that make youtube without javascript don't work and neither does any extension because i use such a niche browser. so......then i realized....i don't need every app in the world on my macbook and can only use my macbook for work cause obviously that's what it is. emails, university work, etc. cause i remember going through the ringer (i think that's the saying) to download many other outdated version of apps for other devices. i literally have windows movie maker on my computer. and i have jailbroken youtube on my old ipad and my old iphone. so no i don't need imovie..but i would like imovie! but i have to install ilife. is it worth it? and is it really worth it to have angry birds the macbook version? well.. YOLO... i was like this with my phone, like oh should i jailbreak it..but everything must be accessible for me to truly make myself not go on my modern devices. what shall i do?
me coming up with a random song idea then briefly playing what a catch by fall out boy :)
im going to either dedicate myself time out of my day to go to my computer to blog something little, once a day, so it looks like im not chronically online... or i can write really long blog posts and email them to myself from my mac to my computer. :) :) :) what shall i do today? i have to wash my dishes but i want to read fan fictions and watch reruns of in puii mei. also remind me to find out a way to get a old version of google chrome. or actually, i can just switch to my pale moon browser. but i designed my google to have galaxy tabs but they're so two years ago... gonna force myself from this day on to use the pale moon browser except for antena news and youtube and university stuff. i set so many rules for myself. do you know how much more complicated it would be for me to download so many extensions on a older version of google so my modern browser websites work? UGHHHHHHHHHH! somebody lemme know what to doooooooooo. im so hungry and i need to wash my dishes in order to make the food i'm imagining. UGHHHHHHH! i love blogging, but i want to find an extension that makes my blogspot look chic. also when you look up blogspot in 2008, the first thing that shows up is a reddit thread and its posted on some community about women in romania specifically. that is when i found out blogging era for romanian moms is over with their floral websites...imagine, being a chud, AS A ROMANIAN! GROSS! now i hate everything i wrote. rebuke rebuke rebuke! i am HANGRY.
i can't afford to be rich. like, if i was really really rich, i'd just give random poor people that i know money and i would have a CRT TV off ebay that costs 50 bucks. with the random poor people thing though, i already do that. you know, the poorest people offer to pay for others but rich people are always so greedy- since they never had real normal human friends in life they don't know empathy. money does change people, so when i get rich i will be spending it on necessities for everybody. and if i don't end up doing that well you might as well just sh**t me because i do NOT wanna be that person whos greedy and rich. i can always tell who grew up pretentious now that i'm put in the real adult world with other adults my age. by the way 19. we are young adults. and some are soooooo pretentious you guys
hi guys, im gonna be posting daily diaries. so yes i finally cleaned my room- unimportant, heres the thought of the day: one of my many pet peeves!
i hate when people that i don't know that well tell me how to pronounce something. salmon for example. i say SAL MON. i'm romanian, so i say every letter in the alphabet. but this person insisted that i said SAMON. bitch? okay... theyre not a bitch obviously. but it's like, why are you offended at my immigrant accent. and then they say- well you have an american one. yeah no duh, but americans also say SAMON, i just have an eastern european american accent. thanks tho! i need to be more woke so next time ill be like, are you being racist?
i find it weird how common it is for older men to have high confidence in getting with younger girls. yes i am 19, but i look like a 15 year old, and i've had dudes in their late 20s, or just in their 20s, always older than 23, like, try to hit on me. and online im assuming 40 year olds. why is that? i'm so confused? im convinced men want to fuck a mcdonalds happy meal at this point. it's kinda annoying me. i have the personality of a really annoying dude, too. so i feel like they should just confront themselves and be like yes im gay! but then i forget im a girl, i forget i look like a girl, i forget all that. i really just feel like a dude. so when a lot of dudes approach me i see it in a oh yeah lets be friends way but apparently its just because im a girl. i'm not stupid, i know what they're doing. it's annoying me a lot. i'm really not to be messed with or disrespected. i'm a highly intelligent person and i act stupid sometimes on purpose because i want people to fuck off. i will never and i mean NEVER in my life will act more grown than i am. i will do grown people things as i am approaching my 20s obviously, but i will always act childish. because that's just who i am. i'm autistic. so i come off as childish. but i also do it because it's on purpose and i want people to fuck off.
and because i feel that my personality is so manly stereotypically, i don't care enough about this stuff happening because i already assume these men who do this are stupid as shit. no brain. theyre so obsessed with how they look, it's looking gay! so gay. a man having a crush on me is the gayest thing ever.
fuck! i don't even know what else to say. i'm just not into dating. but in real life so many older dudes won't fuck off. i have autism. me being autistic means i'm undateable; im incapable of having a serious relationship until i reach the age of 30.
that may be a lie though, because i will be fully committed to another person who's just like me. but regardless of if somebody's autistic or not- those same older men are also incapable of being dated? that's why they're still single at their big age. so i'm kinda like that, i embody that, so a man having a crush on me is gay. i'd advise you date an actual man and not a girl with the attitude of a dude.
now the question that begs the audience... am i interested in dating at the moment?
no. dating is a curse lowkey. too many people are unserious, including me. that stuff just makes me cringe. i don't like dating at all. cringiest thing ever. if somebody wants me, they better put a ring on it! i don't do dating. yes i'm a party pooper blah blah who gives a shit? i'm trying to get into my career the last thing i need is a corny relationship. all the people i dated are literal cornballs that i would bully now cause they're so mentally ill in a bad way it's crazy.
this isn't me being like oh mental health is fake, oh mental health is not serious; i'm talking about the people that are mentally ill but purposefully choose to not get better. so they just waste everybody's time. i'm like the most mentally insane person out there to anybody knows me personally but hey i managed it! because i'm a good person. mental health doesn't excuse you being a shit person. it can excuse being late to washing your dishes and not cleaning ur room on time, but other than that nah. mental health is just something that makes your brain function differently. not something that makes your brain function evil.
it's like theres a republican old man stuck inside my brain by the way im speaking i'm sorry guys. i'm really woke i swear. i agree with liberal values which is just basic human rights. i just express it in a republican way. it's my autism making me do this maybe..cause i never know of a time and place i guess!
back to what i was saying tho.. what do these old men think i fucking want to talk to them about? about me being a good girl who submits to them? cringy if u ask me... i actually talk about my special interests and shit. idk.
either way im 19 im just a baby im just a kid!
anyways..fuck this rant..i don't like being negative. i'm not like that anymore. PEACE OUT RIANNA NATION!
