i find it weird how common it is for older men to have high confidence in getting with younger girls. yes i am 19, but i look like a 15 year old, and i've had dudes in their late 20s, or just in their 20s, always older than 23, like, try to hit on me. and online im assuming 40 year olds. why is that? i'm so confused? im convinced men want to fuck a mcdonalds happy meal at this point. it's kinda annoying me. i have the personality of a really annoying dude, too. so i feel like they should just confront themselves and be like yes im gay! but then i forget im a girl, i forget i look like a girl, i forget all that. i really just feel like a dude. so when a lot of dudes approach me i see it in a oh yeah lets be friends way but apparently its just because im a girl. i'm not stupid, i know what they're doing. it's annoying me a lot. i'm really not to be messed with or disrespected. i'm a highly intelligent person and i act stupid sometimes on purpose because i want people to fuck off. i will never and i mean NEVER in my life will act more grown than i am. i will do grown people things as i am approaching my 20s obviously, but i will always act childish. because that's just who i am. i'm autistic. so i come off as childish. but i also do it because it's on purpose and i want people to fuck off.
and because i feel that my personality is so manly stereotypically, i don't care enough about this stuff happening because i already assume these men who do this are stupid as shit. no brain. theyre so obsessed with how they look, it's looking gay! so gay. a man having a crush on me is the gayest thing ever.
fuck! i don't even know what else to say. i'm just not into dating. but in real life so many older dudes won't fuck off. i have autism. me being autistic means i'm undateable; im incapable of having a serious relationship until i reach the age of 30.
that may be a lie though, because i will be fully committed to another person who's just like me. but regardless of if somebody's autistic or not- those same older men are also incapable of being dated? that's why they're still single at their big age. so i'm kinda like that, i embody that, so a man having a crush on me is gay. i'd advise you date an actual man and not a girl with the attitude of a dude.
now the question that begs the audience... am i interested in dating at the moment?
no. dating is a curse lowkey. too many people are unserious, including me. that stuff just makes me cringe. i don't like dating at all. cringiest thing ever. if somebody wants me, they better put a ring on it! i don't do dating. yes i'm a party pooper blah blah who gives a shit? i'm trying to get into my career the last thing i need is a corny relationship. all the people i dated are literal cornballs that i would bully now cause they're so mentally ill in a bad way it's crazy.
this isn't me being like oh mental health is fake, oh mental health is not serious; i'm talking about the people that are mentally ill but purposefully choose to not get better. so they just waste everybody's time. i'm like the most mentally insane person out there to anybody knows me personally but hey i managed it! because i'm a good person. mental health doesn't excuse you being a shit person. it can excuse being late to washing your dishes and not cleaning ur room on time, but other than that nah. mental health is just something that makes your brain function differently. not something that makes your brain function evil.
it's like theres a republican old man stuck inside my brain by the way im speaking i'm sorry guys. i'm really woke i swear. i agree with liberal values which is just basic human rights. i just express it in a republican way. it's my autism making me do this maybe..cause i never know of a time and place i guess!
back to what i was saying tho.. what do these old men think i fucking want to talk to them about? about me being a good girl who submits to them? cringy if u ask me... i actually talk about my special interests and shit. idk.
either way im 19 im just a baby im just a kid!
anyways..fuck this rant..i don't like being negative. i'm not like that anymore. PEACE OUT RIANNA NATION!
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