hey lovely people reading this,
thank you so much for all your support. life has been really hard for me this year. and still is. there are evil people out there who will watch my every step to make sure they see me fail but they never will i wont let that happen.
i struggle really badly with mental health issues. im trying so hard to get better im really trying but its so hard.
at least though? i have been writing some of my most meaningful lyrics ever through all the pain. yes it has been helping me cope, and yes it will help you guys cope too.
and despite depression, im fighting it with creativity. you guys dont know how many things ive finished making or am about to finish making to be ready to promote. all i ask of you all is to please be patient with me during these times.
thank you to those who check my website every day, those who comment and like on my videos every day, you guys are the ones really holding me together through these tough times.
unfortunately i have been born with extreme mental illness, so it is very easy for me to be extremely depressed. and there are people out there who try to take advantage of that. but you know what? we’ll see who wins in the end, me.
im a survivor unlike them. i do not want to start my career off by basing my whole identity on evil people. i will only work on praising me and my work and those around me who show nothing but love.
i love using this website to journal. i think recently ive been trying to use it just for updates on my career cause its like hey i gotta establish myself but its taking away from my whole purpose; being against corporate, inauthentic branding. so i think since its my website i should be allowed to vent on here. but i dont wanna give too much away on my website, because it will all be on my next album.
have i started writing the next album? legit, the second i finished my first one. ive written basically three albums non stop and theyre all so different to what ive written in the past.
all the songs on once upon a rimi were written from ages 14-15 and a little at 16.
since 17 i have bettered my craft and now im almost 19. i think in that amount of time ive written three albums.
have i started producing or recording any of the songs? no. i have to promote my first album first. i need to get somewhere.
i realized if im gonna spend time working on my next album to put as many songs out as possible, its gonna take me years, it took me three years to make my first album, so im gonna try my best to promote it.
i want the haters out there to know that, theyre gonna be in their little tiny hating spots their whole life, and im only gonna elevate further. im not letting mental illness define me.
ok so 20 mins passed since i wrote this
am i bipolar or am i on my period? that is always the question.
okkkkkkkk well i have to remember life doesnt end at 18 there could be worse things in the world and the way im reacting to weirdos online who were rude to me is the way i would react the same when i was 9 and getting cyber bullied by people who are my age right now…crazy.
did that make sense
anyways you guys can tell im not mentally well but hey! im the one that wants to put music out there so i might as well tell everybody about it through creative ways aka my promotion
hope you all like
im very sleepy bye bye you all :)
update: i just wanted to say out there, stay strong please. if im staying strong and fighting depression i had this whole year, you can too. and never be afraid to be vulnerable with yourself. i hope you all heal if youre going through something. stay peaceful. im here for you guys. :’[ like you are for me.
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