my wallpaper :)

 somebody asked me to post my wallpaper so here you go :)

i just got a wallpaper from the net and put a text over it hahaha it looks cool right?

i think i am switching to pale moon.

you guys need to see this.... IT HAS A WOOD THEME THAT REMINDS ME OF IOS 6.

WOW. 

i really really like how this stuff looks idk its just pleasing to look at .

its like if android and apple had a baby...their designs inside the iphone i mean. interface? is that the word in english?

wait i just found this video. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-s6KhmobS7U

i thought pale moon was a browser was made by a technology enthusiast in 2021 or something. 

but its actually been around for a while and its the only company that actually updated their app how it should be updated lol! like they didnt adapt to minimalism , thjey just enhanced their maximalism while keeping it. im gonna do a lot of research on this app and tell you guys all about it in updates.

ITS MY BIRTHDAYYY!!! :D

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!! 

P.S. all the times people said happy birthday to me in real life i said happy birthday to you too back hahahhaa.

i turn...19!

MUSIC PLAYER AVAILABLE!!!!!

 WE NOW HAVE AAAAAAA.... FUNCTIONING MUSIC PLAYER!!! :D

if you get a error that says playback not allowed or something like that, don't worry its just a false warning, you dont have to refresh the page, just play the song again after the warning.

thank you so much for your support!

website update 1324235553252325 old myspace player im coding.

 

what ive been coding..... hopefully i finish this at the end of the day or def tomorrow. so i can put it on my page. this is such pain. what is this glitch. i hate coding. omfg. im not even a coder. but i made this whole thing from scratch cause no where online i can find the old myspace music player. 

this is the reference i used

i really need to fix stuffffffffff but i wanna give upppp!!!!!!!!! but i need to work quick the time is ticking...

updates of july!

 throwback photo i found while i was editing my website! :)

it's from part of the booklet. i can't remember if i took this in 2021 or 2022. i think 2022. so this was three years ago!

updates however:

i'm working on the website heavily, and another one. soon you will be able to play games on my website! ive been drawing copying coding tutorials nonstop lol. i may be a musician/artist in a drawing way/writer/etc but the one thing i will NOT DO IS CODING. BYE BYE. MISS ME WITH THAT.

i can't give away too much. cause there will be many other things that will be made available to you all! 

will there be new music?

i am hoping so. in the span of two years i have written only so much that i want to put out there. i'm trying my best to promote my stuff on my own but i really do not have a team so it is hard for me to manage! i want to record vlogs/or low quality music videos but there is nobody there to help me. maybe i need a tripod, i don't know what i need, but hopefully i find a team. 

i also had to take a break from all this due to my mental health being very weird! i'm sorry anybody i alarmed on my other post! i promise i won't give away too much detail about myself on my blogs anymore.

i am thinking of opening another website that is more professional and you will find more professional stuff there and this website remains as my diary or whatever.

i know exactly what to do, i am settling on a lot of things, and hopefully i get it done all this week lol!

there will be SO MUCH PUT OUT ON MY WEBSITE SO DO STAY TUNED! IT WILL BE SUPER AMAZING! all i need is time! i wish i could give a preview but i don't want anybody to see what i'm doing! so yeah i need to get back to work you guys! bye bye bye thank you love you all!

p.s. i am really obsessed with this song at the moment lol listen to it if you wanna - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjzjH9EuIVI

also, happy fourth of july. i don't live in america so i forgot it's even a thing.....sorry guys.. happy fourth of july to americans who know their true value: of including everybody and not being discriminatory. prejudice is not the answer.

bye bye everyone!!!!!

random diary number la la la

 hey lovely people reading this,

thank you so much for all your support. life has been really hard for me this year. and still is. there are evil people out there who will watch my every step to make sure they see me fail but they never will i wont let that happen.

i struggle really badly with mental health issues. im trying so hard to get better im really trying but its so hard.

at least though? i have been writing some of my most meaningful lyrics ever through all the pain. yes it has been helping me cope, and yes it will help you guys cope too.

and despite depression, im fighting it with creativity. you guys dont know how many things ive finished making or am about to finish making to be ready to promote. all i ask of you all is to please be patient with me during these times.

thank you to those who check my website every day, those who comment and like on my videos every day, you guys are the ones really holding me together through these tough times.

unfortunately i have been born with extreme mental illness, so it is very easy for me to be extremely depressed. and there are people out there who try to take advantage of that. but you know what? we’ll see who wins in the end, me.

im a survivor unlike them. i do not want to start my career off by basing my whole identity on evil people. i will only work on praising me and my work and those around me who show nothing but love. 

i love using this website to journal. i think recently ive been trying to use it just for updates on my career cause its like hey i gotta establish myself but its taking away from my whole purpose; being against corporate, inauthentic branding. so i think since its my website i should be allowed to vent on here. but i dont wanna give too much away on my website, because it will all be on my next album.

have i started writing the next album? legit, the second i finished my first one. ive written basically three albums non stop and theyre all so different to what ive written in the past.

all the songs on once upon a rimi were written from ages 14-15 and a little at 16.

since 17 i have bettered my craft and now im almost 19. i think in that amount of time ive written three albums.

have i started producing or recording any of the songs? no. i have to promote my first album first. i need to get somewhere. 

i realized if im gonna spend time working on my next album to put as many songs out as possible, its gonna take me years, it took me three years to make my first album, so im gonna try my best to promote it.

i want the haters out there to know that, theyre gonna be in their little tiny hating spots their whole life, and im only gonna elevate further. im not letting mental illness define me.

ok so 20 mins passed since i wrote this 

am i bipolar or am i on my period? that is always the question.

okkkkkkkk well i have to remember life doesnt end at 18 there could be worse things in the world and the way im reacting to weirdos online who were rude to me is the way i would react the same when i was 9 and getting cyber bullied by people who are my age right now…crazy.

did that make sense

anyways you guys can tell im not mentally well but hey! im the one that wants to put music out there so i might as well tell everybody about it through creative ways aka my promotion

hope you all like

im very sleepy bye bye you all :) 

update: i just wanted to say out there, stay strong please. if im staying strong and fighting depression i had this whole year, you can too. and never be afraid to be vulnerable with yourself. i hope you all heal if youre going through something. stay peaceful. im here for you guys. :’[ like you are for me.